i've had an overbooked calendar for the last several months. guests and party invites keep arriving. my start up never leaves my mind for more than five minutes at a time. my taxes loom over me. my days are definitely not long enough and i find myself sleeping a full 12 hours per day on the weekend. life as usual at team hp’s.
i got pretty sick a few weeks ago. my cloudy head lifted but the cough has persisted. my cough surprises me now coming and going as it pleases, often at the most inappropriate times. i spend half the day sounding like a donkey. but i just keep on trucking.
for the last 24 hours i've been feeling really weak again. my lingering cough has lasted for three weeks now. last night, before bed (at 3 am), feeling really dizzy, i went to wash my face. drying my face on a towel i saw a line of blood. it confused me. looking in the mirror i couldn't see anything on my face. it took me a few seconds to realize that i had a bloody nose. quickly shoving toilet paper up my nose i thought, what the fuck? i haven’t had a bloody nose since elementary school. i haven’t even been ill for the last decade. not since 1991 to be exact. "what's going on?" i muttered as i dragged myself to bed.
this week's calendar is packed. i have so much to do. i can't just let it be. and it's making me crazy. on my family’s advice i've got to take it easier. on jee’s advice i’m going to start taking vitamins. and words of wisdom from myself, i’m going to be less accomodating and pickier about what i do (starting in april since i'm already booked through march). i'm going to say "no" more starting tomorrow. wish me luck.